My head

Hardly ever write this blog but it's quite interesting to read back over it, so want to try and write every now and again! I'm sat in my room which has been completely wrapped up in newspaper, like Mr. Bean style even all the individual things on my desk (so I'd have things to unwrap on my birthday) it's hilarious! Had a nice chilled out birthday actually woke up not feeling too hung over then relaxed in bed listening to Radio 2 for a couple of hours, made a few phone calls to my family and grandma then went fish shopping with Susie! Jose and Hose B are now happily swimming around at Miss Money's flat! Had a lovely lunch with Susie before going out to meet my brothers for tea and a few drinks!

I'm not really digging this revision type thing, I think I've been doing enough work and am confident my anatomy will be really good come the end on the year so why bother cramming stuff in just for a date? I know I know enough to pass the exam. I want to be clearer on my embryology, nerve supply in general and anatomy of the forearm / muscles, apart from that I don't feel too worried!

I should really go to bed as hardly got any sleep last night and theres a bit of illness in the flat which I don't want to catch for the exam week!

I had thought that I'd probably just leave this blog to it's death as I do my learning journal now on www.sacralmusings.com, but think it'd be good to have as a diary which is what it pretty much was last year, so here goes!

I'm bored! I've got lots of friends at the BSO but Rog and Ravi have gone away for the weekend and although I love the company of girls wait a minute I had it pretty good this morning I woke up and there were 5 girls in the flat and me the only boy! They then cooked me breakfast but I wasn't really in a chatting mood so didn't get to talk properly to any of them really, they actually probably thought I was a bit strange as I spent quite a lot of time trying to staple my sheets to the washing line! Clothes pegs it's official are the best invention since sliced bread and thanks to Tower Electricals I am now the proud owner of "40 super strong clothes pegs"! The sheets were nearly dry when I noticed it was pissing down, so it's all in Ravi's room now, fresh linen on the bed is so nice, I just watched American Beauty lay on my bed ummm, what a good film, brought a tear to my eye at the end, not because he dies just cos it makes you feel really nice and realize what life is really about, it's easy to loose sight of the meaning of life and get so bogged down with the things you're doing that you don't pick your head up and decide if what your doing is what you want to be doing!

I really need to work on being happy to spend the day with myself because it feels like I've wasted my day, I have done a few things, ordered all the pool table equipment for the SU, plugged the Christmas Party and given my room a really good clean, there was quite a lot of dust on the shelves and window sill. I had my hair cut on Friday and it's quite short! I always don't like it when I have it cut for the first month so i'm still in the grieving period, I think it does make me look better, doesn't get in my eyes and won't get greasy as easily, think it's just that I associate myself with having long hair so feel I've lost a bit of myself! It could also be the fact that whatever I decide I want, I pretty much always will then decide that I don't want it once I have it, the amount of girls I've been really keen on only to decide I don't want them when I could have them! I'm doing it at the moment with Helena, she's really keen on me sending me postcards from the other side of the world and I'm not even replying to her e-mails, thats not fair Steve! Must send her an email this weekend think it's been a couple of weeks since she sent it!

What shall I do tomorrow? Think I'm going to go see my bro haven't been to his house for months, might just chill out there for a bit then I'm going round to Clair, Nicola and Kiran's house for mince pies and mulled wine might get pissed I think, that might be the best thing to do, don't have to be in school Monday, want to go in tho and do loads of work this course is like my job (a job I love)if I try to keep that up I won't have a problem with covering all the work! Joanna Newsom writes some of the most beautiful music possible Only Skin 16 minutes of amazingness!

Just moved into my new flat in the big London town! Only met two of the other four so far but they seem really nice and quite importantly tidy too! Just made some food and think I'm gonna have an early night cos I got completely wrecked on thursday and still feel rough! Really don't know why I didn't realize that it probably wasn't the best idea the get totaled and come in at 6.30am the day before i move house still having loads to do, but I did and didn't do a thing on friday except lie in bed wishing i was dead! Meal with friends on friday was nice shame the late bar we went to was a bit of a dive, but hey! A nice early night and think I'll feel just about normal tomorrow all ready for start and uni on monday oooh I'm sort of slightly nervously looking forward to it, think there gonna put us straight to work, I'm not unused to hard work tho so should be fine!

I've not got that many things left to do really, just annoying little things like change of address for stuff and taking things to the charity shop! I sort of feel a bit in limbo really and just want to get started now.

Last day of work with Geoff and Tez so we just worked the morning then played golf. On the whole played really well, par on the 1st 4 on second, a few sevens but thats not a major cos haven't played that much, my putting was what impressed me the most a 12 footer on the 1st couple of 8 footers and don't think I three putted all round, it's my long game thats not up to much, off the tea I was poor and my fairway woods I never really feel confident stood over them.
Going to try and get the majority of my stuff sorted out tomorrow, want to keep all my cd's, only keeping a few books, need to go through my clothes going shopping with Lizzie on thursday get a few new things. Must think about all the places I need to inform of change of address too.

Nearly time to move... just little bit of work on monday then golf after that finished with Geoff and Tez need to work wednesday then no more worky for me!! Need to go through all my stuff and sort out what I'm getting rid of, can't take much down with me really it's only a small room. I've looked through the precourse reading and it seems that The Dan already covered a lot of that last year, I understand most of it maybe not in the detail required but at least it doesn't look completely alien!

I'm really enjoying having the house to myself for the week cos I can keep it nice and tidy and chill with music on, have friends round or just have my own space! I went for a run around Dale Dyke reservior which I thought was 4 miles but I did the run with quite a steady climb at the end in 20 mins thats 5 minute miles I don't think I can run that fast so maybe it's shorter than i thought, I was completely shattered at the end of it tho my running mantra was "pain is temporary, quitting lasts forever" and it stopped me from stopping or walking any of it!

The weeks are counting down now till I move to London..... only bout 3 now! Played golf today for the first time this year!! played quite well really after a shockingly bad start 10 on the first hole!!! but found my game and came in for like 45 with plenty of 4's occasional bad hole but expected that. Pitched an 8 iron 165 yards whoo! Weekend in London for me get to meet up with all my Southern friends ... can't wait it's been quite a while since I've seen them over a month!!! That must be the longest since the course stared I think! Going to meet my perspective house mates tomorrow, hope I can have the room cos really just want to have somewhere sorted and know where I'm going and the location is FAB just a shame about the size of the room but hey!
Right must shower.... a morning of work then round of golf has left me rather smelly!

Done the absolute bare minimum this weekend saw some friends friday, but saturday and sunday nothing... apart from walking dog haven't left the house! Well spend most of weekend in garden sunbathing and reading, read Lance Armstrong's book every second counts which was about as far removed from what I did as poss, squeezing every drop of life from each second. Maybe time by myself was just what i needed tho, was offered a game of golf this arvo but turned it down, playing with 2 single handicappers when i haven't played yet this year might be a bit too much for me i thought! I was sat with Buster my duckling this evening don't think i really want to put him back with his mother he's sooo cute, I did try but she attacked him and would feel pretty guilty if he died. It's funny how he'll accept me as his momma without any real questions, now I put my hand in and he comes running. Need to walk the dog ring Kim ring Andy then go to bed cos I have to get even earlier now to do all the animals before work! Mind walking round the park very early in the morning is really nice, so quiet and peaceful.

I've spend the day doing absolutely nothing just dozing reading and sadly facebooking! Had a few friends round last night just for a couple of beers nothing much, but only ended up having 7 hours sleep and worked a 12 hour day yesterday so think I needed today to recharge. Oh I have been looking after Buster my duckling! Tried to put it with mother hen but she attacked him might try again later when dark.

I think I'm gonna take that house in London but can't decide and don't know if it's cos I should look a bit harder and not just take the first thing or if its just the fact that by taking a house I'm saying its final I'm leaving, and that scares me a little! The only real down side to the house is that the room is small but location, people and price are great, I'm pretty sure I want it think I need to just decide and go for it, worst case is that I live somewhere for a year that's a little small, worse things happen at sea!

It was about a week ago that I said I'd go on a fitness push, it lasted about 2 days! I'm blaming it on the fact that I've been having hard days at work so feel completely spent in evenings. I also find it hard to spend time by myself... what I mean is that I like to be around other people all the time and feel like I'm missing out on something when I'm sat at home relaxing! Thinking about it not such a good thing that I don't enjoy my own company is it.
Anyway back to fitness, did a bit of work on the punch bag and am playing tennis tomorrow, may have a workout later see how I feel.

I hope this is finally summer, sat in the garden listening to music on comp with a nice cold glass on water... lovely! I'm determined not to get down about Lizzie, she's a stunningly lovely girl but don't really want someone back in Sheffield, I'd like to be living in London and have my life there too. Thinking about it, it's gonna be ace only having to look after myself and not have to think about the rest of the family, and also properly having my own life!