My head

It was about a week ago that I said I'd go on a fitness push, it lasted about 2 days! I'm blaming it on the fact that I've been having hard days at work so feel completely spent in evenings. I also find it hard to spend time by myself... what I mean is that I like to be around other people all the time and feel like I'm missing out on something when I'm sat at home relaxing! Thinking about it not such a good thing that I don't enjoy my own company is it.
Anyway back to fitness, did a bit of work on the punch bag and am playing tennis tomorrow, may have a workout later see how I feel.

I hope this is finally summer, sat in the garden listening to music on comp with a nice cold glass on water... lovely! I'm determined not to get down about Lizzie, she's a stunningly lovely girl but don't really want someone back in Sheffield, I'd like to be living in London and have my life there too. Thinking about it, it's gonna be ace only having to look after myself and not have to think about the rest of the family, and also properly having my own life!

Not enough sleep makes me not want to sleep, then feel shit cos I've not had enough sleep.... does that make any sense?
Good couple of days in London came back and went for a drink with papa in Springvale and Lizzie was working whoo, had a little chat then when home for food and shower. Met Tom for a drink later and didn't really talk to her again boo! I know she hates work and they were busy so put it down to that, came and talked to me before she went home must ring her tomorrow and try arrange to go out again! She going home for 3 weeks on thurday tho, thats shit! Really should try and get some sleep but just annoyed that I've met a really nice girl when I'm about to move 200 miles away and can't help but think, should I not pursue it to prevent me hurting myself! No shouldn't do that I'd rather have a regret about something I tried rather than something I didn't!

I'm quite enjoying life at the moment, works ok and getting paid quite well, plus just met an amazingly lovely girl, who I went out for a drink with last night, 3rd year medical student who's good fun, really down to earth and stunningly beautiful! I move down to London in about 5 weeks tho talk about bad timing! Not really sure what to do about it, she wants to go out again and I obviously do... well I'm definitely gonna go out with her again thats not the problem. Maybe I'm just making problems where there aren't any....it's just I think it'd take us quite a while to get together, both a little shy. Don't want to seem too keen tho..... or am I just being a typical man thinking you should leave it a few days before arranging second date? Or maybe I'm just being a wimp who knows! I think I should just play it by ear and not think I've got to be too urgent!

Looking at a house in London tomorrow sounds quite good just the rooms a little small (or cosy) that sounds better. Would be something less to worry about and it's only a bedroom after all.... yeah where I'll be spending alot of my time next year, ummm need to think about it really. The main drawbacks I know of at the moment are the small bedroom and lack of proper communal sitting room. Pluses are 20 mins walk to BSO!!! Living with 4th year and two 3rd years and Kim's lovely from what I've heard, it's also on the underground zone 1 I think! I hope I like it when I look at it.

Thought I'd feel like shit all week, but I don't! Monday evening shit, tuesday all day shit, wednesday fine and today great!!! Looking forward to the weekend cos I've a party friday and brother Murray is coming down from Newcastle Sat!

I put feeling good down to drinking lots of water and realizing that i tend to wallow in my feeling down, feeling depressed is shit so why let yourself do it?

I'm gonna get really fit before I start back in September cos I've put on weight but lost size and tone so feeling a bit soft! Weights 3 times a week 100 pushups a night and the dreaded situps I detest them but good for getting a six pack, all my six packs recently have been the liquid form! Want to play a bit of tennis too and golf!

Been in a pretty foul mood all week, well i say that I've been reasonably pleasant with most people but just felt pissed off with myself. Life should be fun but don't seem to be enjoying it that much at the mo, I like my weekends as long as i get out and do something, evenings just seem to pass to quickly!