My head

It was about a week ago that I said I'd go on a fitness push, it lasted about 2 days! I'm blaming it on the fact that I've been having hard days at work so feel completely spent in evenings. I also find it hard to spend time by myself... what I mean is that I like to be around other people all the time and feel like I'm missing out on something when I'm sat at home relaxing! Thinking about it not such a good thing that I don't enjoy my own company is it.
Anyway back to fitness, did a bit of work on the punch bag and am playing tennis tomorrow, may have a workout later see how I feel.

I hope this is finally summer, sat in the garden listening to music on comp with a nice cold glass on water... lovely! I'm determined not to get down about Lizzie, she's a stunningly lovely girl but don't really want someone back in Sheffield, I'd like to be living in London and have my life there too. Thinking about it, it's gonna be ace only having to look after myself and not have to think about the rest of the family, and also properly having my own life!

Not enough sleep makes me not want to sleep, then feel shit cos I've not had enough sleep.... does that make any sense?
Good couple of days in London came back and went for a drink with papa in Springvale and Lizzie was working whoo, had a little chat then when home for food and shower. Met Tom for a drink later and didn't really talk to her again boo! I know she hates work and they were busy so put it down to that, came and talked to me before she went home must ring her tomorrow and try arrange to go out again! She going home for 3 weeks on thurday tho, thats shit! Really should try and get some sleep but just annoyed that I've met a really nice girl when I'm about to move 200 miles away and can't help but think, should I not pursue it to prevent me hurting myself! No shouldn't do that I'd rather have a regret about something I tried rather than something I didn't!