My head

Not enough sleep makes me not want to sleep, then feel shit cos I've not had enough sleep.... does that make any sense?
Good couple of days in London came back and went for a drink with papa in Springvale and Lizzie was working whoo, had a little chat then when home for food and shower. Met Tom for a drink later and didn't really talk to her again boo! I know she hates work and they were busy so put it down to that, came and talked to me before she went home must ring her tomorrow and try arrange to go out again! She going home for 3 weeks on thurday tho, thats shit! Really should try and get some sleep but just annoyed that I've met a really nice girl when I'm about to move 200 miles away and can't help but think, should I not pursue it to prevent me hurting myself! No shouldn't do that I'd rather have a regret about something I tried rather than something I didn't!

I'm quite enjoying life at the moment, works ok and getting paid quite well, plus just met an amazingly lovely girl, who I went out for a drink with last night, 3rd year medical student who's good fun, really down to earth and stunningly beautiful! I move down to London in about 5 weeks tho talk about bad timing! Not really sure what to do about it, she wants to go out again and I obviously do... well I'm definitely gonna go out with her again thats not the problem. Maybe I'm just making problems where there aren't any....it's just I think it'd take us quite a while to get together, both a little shy. Don't want to seem too keen tho..... or am I just being a typical man thinking you should leave it a few days before arranging second date? Or maybe I'm just being a wimp who knows! I think I should just play it by ear and not think I've got to be too urgent!

Looking at a house in London tomorrow sounds quite good just the rooms a little small (or cosy) that sounds better. Would be something less to worry about and it's only a bedroom after all.... yeah where I'll be spending alot of my time next year, ummm need to think about it really. The main drawbacks I know of at the moment are the small bedroom and lack of proper communal sitting room. Pluses are 20 mins walk to BSO!!! Living with 4th year and two 3rd years and Kim's lovely from what I've heard, it's also on the underground zone 1 I think! I hope I like it when I look at it.

Thought I'd feel like shit all week, but I don't! Monday evening shit, tuesday all day shit, wednesday fine and today great!!! Looking forward to the weekend cos I've a party friday and brother Murray is coming down from Newcastle Sat!

I put feeling good down to drinking lots of water and realizing that i tend to wallow in my feeling down, feeling depressed is shit so why let yourself do it?

I'm gonna get really fit before I start back in September cos I've put on weight but lost size and tone so feeling a bit soft! Weights 3 times a week 100 pushups a night and the dreaded situps I detest them but good for getting a six pack, all my six packs recently have been the liquid form! Want to play a bit of tennis too and golf!

Been in a pretty foul mood all week, well i say that I've been reasonably pleasant with most people but just felt pissed off with myself. Life should be fun but don't seem to be enjoying it that much at the mo, I like my weekends as long as i get out and do something, evenings just seem to pass to quickly!

Got all the results back and I"ve passed hurrah! Felt like a bit of an anticlimax really we all sat around at the pub being quite quiet, I got pissed the night before so didn't really feel like another night of party so was home for 10. Just watched a bit of Glastonbury with Mike then bed, it was a nice feeling tho waking in the morning and not having to rush for anything, made my way the St Pancras leisurely got a bit of food, a book and sat on the train home. Got home and felt slightly sad that i won't see my friends in London for a while and wanted to go out and celebrate with some more gin... Ended up only getting to bed at 12 having drunkenly arranged a BBQ this friday, should be fun about 10-12 people would be a nice number, too many and I'd start to worry about the house getting trashed! It's 6 at the current count and there should be at least another 4 i should think!

I'm going to have to be careful with my drinking, cos I like a drink but what goes up must come down!

Well just had the two last exams yesterday and think they went alright, the morning one i'm really happy with afternoon not quite as happy but pretty sure it's a pass!
The year seems to have flown past I can vividly remember sitting in GO1 and seeing all my fellow class mates for the first time, wouldn't have dreamed that we would have become such a close knit family, I've made some brilliant friends this year and can't wait to move down this summer! A little worried how I going to go for money but it'll be worth it i'm sure...

Even tho the year seems to have flown I do feel i've learnt so much about the body already, largely due to the brilliance of Daniel's teaching! I now know how i best learn and for structure function it's sitting down without a text book just thinking about it until it clicks. For learning muscle attachments I'm gonna buy a skeleton and use wool and bluetak because i need to be able to picture the muscle in my head and see where it's going, just writing down tibial tuborosity to Pubis angle doesn't really work for me.

so I'm gonna try and learn lots of the muscle attachments over the summer and possibly nerve paths.

I don't quite know what my purpose is now, well for the summer cos the last year every weekend I've studied and most evenings so now I don't have to I'm going to have to find something I want to do with my spare time, think it's been quite a distraction from the fact that i don't really have any hobbies that i do so i'd like to try and play a bit more sport and relax more!

Not really done that much tonight just mainly sat down and thought about all the things i'd like to mention in an essay, feel i understand the subjects quite well and as long as i can put that across in an essay i'll pass so bring it on.
I'm gonna drink gin after class i've just decided this very minute, as celebration of there being no more exams after saturday gin gin gin.

I'm feeling ok about the control essay because the diagrams are fairly simple and examples are the best way to show how they work together. I've just got a feeling that he can't ask two questions with homeostasis in the title, but don't feel he's gonna ask the digestive system as it doesn't seem so relative.

Don't know what to revise tonight feel i should write one on the kidneys but not to do with homeostasis, aar buts thats their function! Right if the question in the morning is on the urinary then i'll have to discuss homeostasis, but draw diagrams of the Bowmans capsule, PCT, Loop of Henle, DCT, vasa recta, etc, so i need to go over the names of the collecting ducts calyx (looked it up) and decide what diagrams i will draw. 1 showing where everything is inside body, 2 diagram of kidney showing renal capsule, renal cortex, renal medulla, one pipe in two pipes out, 3 showing the Glomerulus, PCT, LOH, DCT, vasa recta and annotations saying what each bit does, most reabsorpsion in the PCT obligitory reabsorption, waterproof ascending limb of henle, facaltive reabsoption in DCT.

If its on the digestive system then i need to draw:
1 where everything is in the body, 2 xsection 4 layers and annotate. 3 stomach showing sphincters and labeling different areas, pyloris, greater curvature, lesser and top bit fundus and cardia (looked up)
4 Small intestine xsection and annotation.

I just sat with Megan and made all the digestive and urinary system out of playdough it was really good actually and makes you remember the shapes better definatly.

Right i'm gonna go to bed had quite a few late nights recently and could do with catching up on some sleep!

Think my last entry might have been slightly big headed of me! I do feel that i understand the renal and digestive systems but writing a clear, concise 500 word essay is slightly more difficult! I've written a structure / function one for the digestive system, but think the questions more likely to be how it's controlled, so need to write one about all the different ways it does this: sphincters, receptors, secretions, each section communicating with the next, having it's own nervous system that sort of thing.

For the urinary system think it'll be something like discuss how the kidneys process blood, so need to go into how it separates it keep and throw away and how it reabsorbs and controls BP, osmotic pressure, electrolyte balance and RBC count with the secretions of ADH, Renin, ANP, Eurethropoetin.... etc.

Think i pretty much understand the renal system in as much detail as we need to know, it took a while to get my head round it but i think i'd be able to write quite a good essay on it now. Most of my time has been spend just thinking about it really, i have used Tortora to look at the structure and names of different bits so wouldn't have been able to do it without. Think i'll write a practise essay on it and see how it goes.

Need to spend some time on the digestive system, it is a lot simpler than the renal system but need to go over what the different parts do like the hormones the liver secretes and where pepsinogen comes from certain things like that and then practise writing an essay for it.

I feel quite confident on the nervous system i think i've finally got how all the different receptors work... there all sensitive to certain things which create a graded potential a difference in the membrane potential caused by sodium being allowed into the cell, when that graded potential reaches a threshold sodium channels are opened so a huge peak in the voltage occurs an action potential which shoots down the axon and sends the message of YES.

Ha it was nice to have a full weekend off still got up quite early had a workout and go on the punch bag then did a few chores and spend the rest of the day in the garden sunbathing! Summer rocks!